I just started this 2day, but I did'nt feel like finishing it (lazy) I was thinking maybe I can find someone to finish it for me...*thought bubble*


Hypothetically speaking If YOU and I were to meet
I would know YOU from jump, you'd sweep me off my feet
Just one look into the windows to your soul
Immediately I'll have the feeling I'll already know
I have what YOU need the piece that God left out
Your rib the missing piece to puzzle It's me no doubt
Our love would eclipse the sun because it's too damn bright
Not to mention the fact that together we out of sight
My love deep enough for a whale to swim in
Forever and ever our story never ends
Cause me to smile when the world is on my shoulders
Our souls joined 2gether a bond to never be broken...

Soo it's 4:12 am here in Columbus, OH and I have soooo many things on my mind it's ridiculous. I'm bout to take u on a trip... I got one question tho, IS YOU ROLLIN????

When am I gonna get a boyfriend? I think I'm so picky, that MAY be why I don't have one. I want one so bad, and I'm talkin bout the kind that makes me say WOW, is this one mine??? lol In terms of personality, trustworthiness, loyalty, looks I need a dude that's gonna floor me because these past couple of months, I have NOT been impressed. Well except the one dude, but he ain't on me. Guess I was'nt all that impressive *shrugs shoulders* :)

I have actually been enjoying my time without a phone slightly. My baby is broken and I don't have money right now :( New job starts MONDAY! :) Bout to be workin wit my homieloverfriend haha lol. I get pangs in my soul tho becuz I used to lay in the bed and post and now I have to sit @ a desk and write these damn blogs...

Also If I wanna call ppl I gotta use a HOUSE phone... I ain't did that in yrs and I ain't bout to have no dudes callin my house. They either A) are gonna be ignored by my grama cuz she on da phone or B) encounter my father which I dunno what that dude'll say, he's unpredictable....

I have been celibate for a lil bit over a month! YAY and plan on staying that way for a long long time. At least until YOU come into my life.. I messed up a couple wks ago, but playas mess up too sometimes. Pray my strength in the LORD! :)))

I need more platonic male friendships in my life. I love MEN...

I think these random thoughts are all about MEN lol

Speaking of MEN, I fall in love instantaneously with a man that can pick me up... The bouncer @ one of the bars we went to picked me up and needless to say I think I'm in loooooovvvvvveee again hahahahaha (JK!)

I love my brownskin MEN but I keep ending up with these lightskin dudes! What's that about?!?! Something about chocolate gives me chillllssss, BLACK IS BEAUTIFUL!

Man I love GOD for making me $0 D0p3niqu3 (Dope and unique) there really is nob0di lik3 M3! I love my individuality!!! And take the opportunity to excercise it at the drop of a hat!!!

Well I think that's all folkz! MayB an edit or two later lol!

*SMOOCHES*

When It Hurts So Bad - Lauryn Hill

What you WANT might make you cry and what you NEED might pass you by, if
you don't catch it...
And what you NEED ironically will turn out what you WANT to be if you just
let it...
~Lauryn Hill "When It Hurts So BAD"

So I feel this song in the pit of my soul every time I hear it, no lie! It describes what will happen if you give your love away to someone who does'nt deserve it. or someone who is'nt reciprocating it. The above quote describes my plight in full detail I swear.

What I WANT more than anything is what makes me cry.

All the time what I really NEED is passing me by because I'm too stupid to see that it's what I really need...

Therefore I can't catch it because I'm caught up ...

But what I NEED and I mean really really NEED ironically is going to turn out to be what I WANT it to be....

IF I JUST LET IT!

If I shift my focus from getting/chasing what I WANT in a man ie; what looks good, smells good, tastes good, sounds good, and feels good (five senses) and go after what I NEED from a man ie; love, honesty, loyalty, long-suffering and LOVE (characteristics) then what I NEED is going to turn out to what I WANT... I just have to LET IT happen... DEEP!

I'm so tired of getting my feelings hurt and my heart broken because I like many people rush the process. Women in particular. I'm not in any rush to the altar, TRUST ME, but I would like to have someone like/love me, because quite honestly I know I'm a GREAT PERSON and after that I'm a damn good woman!

The problem can quite honestly be attributed to the fact that I just wanna be accepted by the opposite sex, does'nt everybody dammit! And LORD knows I have a whole lot of love inside of me to give to the man who finds me and has the right intentions/motives/ good head on his shoulders/ GOD fearing/ good looking *crosses fingers*

I just need to chill out and LET IT BE....

Sooo I saw this over on my friend Mikey McFly's blog and decided I should share with you guys... I am a HUGE Musiq Soulchild fan. SoBeautiful is one of my favorite songs off of Onmyradio.. So when I saw that there was a video I had to see it! The imagery and set-up of the video is absolutely breath-taking and the model was very beautiful as well... Sit back and mellow out!

Head To Toe - Eric Roberson

Invigorating my soul to the core

Always leaves me wanting, needing, craving for more

Inspire me, lift me off my feet

High into another stratosphere

Catapaulting me into ecstascy

On top of the world in your arms

In my night sky the only star

The only man that I adore

Like waves washing the shore

Cleanse my spirit from loves before

My heart flying freely

Floating on through the heavens

Most precious creation of GOD you are

I loved you from the very start

Please don't ever walk away

Because I for sure am here to stay

Life for me took a drastic turn

No longer a woman spurned

Now one with hope for better tommorrows

Threw away my pain my sorrows

In exchange for YOU my beautiful diamond

NO thing could ever change my mind

So my question to YOU simple and plain

Will you be here for the rest of my life to STAY??

~~Loving ALL

that YOU are and what you will BE

BeShayBE~~

This is dedicated to YOU...Sometimes it takes for someone else to say how they feel in order for you to gather your own thoughts, just listen...