I'm tip-toeing on a dangerous line
Thinking we could do this one more time
Our history marred by infidelity, tainted, rotten the core
Yet and still I keep going back for more more more
Adapting a dangerous mindset
That sex is just sex
When in reality its much more complex
I'm sharing my body with you
Mind and soul too
Our energy coming together full force
Reasons why sexing should mean much more
Our souls interwined, tangled up to say the least
Why windows get busted out, gotta call the police
When things go south because my pride is involved
Why u should twice before tryna get in my draws
An emotional wreck, I let you have a piece of me
Pretending I could push feelings aside, how foolish of me
In turn u use them creating an unfair advantage
Cuz u don't give a damn, ur attitude raw and savage
Lemme keep a cool head though it aint all on you
Because provebial wisdom shows that in the pudding is the proof
I wasn't too blind not to know the truth
Hindsight 20/20 I already KNOW you
I aint warming no jail bench on some b.s.
I don't need none of the drama, NONE of the stress
Smartened up I'm using the past as my guide
That's why last time REALLY was the last time

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Please excuse me guys, the internet fu*kery entry will be up soon! But as any other night, like many of you, I am layin in the bed thinking. I have a certain someone that I am talking to that I've taken up an interest in. And I know that he likes me too. He's actually a very very good guy. He listens when I have problems, I listen when he has his. He is very polite and strictly a gentleman. Sounds great 4 ur gurl right? Wellllllll here's the problem, I kinda feel like its 2 good 2 be true, like I don't deserve it and right now I'm not wanting to let go of doing me, but I can feel the end of this form of selfishness coming 2 an end. I want to "Share My World" give a part of me 2 someone else and expect the same in return. Actually to give my all to a man... But I won't make any steps 2 do so because I'm scared to just lose control, or the so-called-upperhand in the situation. This
pattern of behavior hasn't failed me yet, according to what I know, but I think I will be messed up in 2 months when he's with another chick and I'm still alone. By alone I mean desiring a companion to fufill my emotional, spiritual, physical needs. Which he does in a way... The thing I don't wanna do is RUSH which I can say I've been taking it super slow on this. I'm really tryna play my cards smart and not make a mistake. Because in this case its a heart @ stake. I'm scared that umma fuck up, although I know that past behavior is simply the past and that I can't use it as a mesuaring stick. As a person that is constantly maturing, I do my damndest not to repeat stuff and learn my lesson. Well more later! Holla @ me!!