Abigail Ekue is a NYC-based writer who uses words to convey what she sees and feels. She explores the human experience of being and the body—health, fitness, nutrition, psychology, emotions, relationships and sex—through her writing. When she’s not writing, she’s creating with her body and with a camera or planning erotic events. For more information on her latest projects and events, please visit http://www.abigailekue.com/

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This Music Monday, we have some great features...  Speaking of features, this artist was featured last week in the "Say Hello" section. His name is John "the Jugganaut" Gibson and this track is featured on his album "The Jugganaut's Thoughts Vol.1: 792" available through his website http://www.jugganautical.com. "I Believe" is an upbeat track featuring production from Al Ko, also known as Al Kohol. It speaks of his experience with a girl, in the world and what he thinks of himself. Peep the quotes below and LISTEN to the track!

"I Believe" JG The Jugganaut

I believe that if you leave it would dry up the seas/ it would curse my world with atrophy and disesase/ because I believe that the sunshine originates a few inches above your knees/ That's why I'm getting my pants legs dirty/ begging you please don't you leave/ because I believe that once we get comfortable/ I can buy colorfu sweaters and we can live like Cliff and Clair Huxtable...

I told you about the girl, and I and I told you about the world, but what do I think about JG??

Say HELLO is a new section where I'm going to feature people you may or may not know, that you SHOULD get to know! If you would like to be featured, send me your bio/website links/ and a picture to Shaybe@Beshaybe.com and we'll get it crackin! This will be posted every other Wednesday of the month...

My first feature is someone that I've grown to know and love, my friend JG aka The Jugganaut and he is SOOOO Jugganautical! He is a spoken word artist, also known as "Your favorite rapper's favorite poet", and he definitely owns and obliterates any stage and mic he encounters. He is currently pushing his album "The Jugganaut's Thoughts Vol.1: 792" that took him three years to complete. For anyone that had to wait in anticipation  the ENTIRE three years, it was well worth the wait! Heck I only waited three months and I got what I expected and MORE.

It's one of those projects that take you on a journey in your mind to places both familiar and unfamiliar. You're definitely going to find something you can relate to on this joint whether it be "A Day At The Beach", "Nighttime Maneuvers" or "792" (who doesn't remember the Jolly Rancher sticks) you'll like it and LOVE it! The album is currently available for $8.99 through his website http://www.Jugganautical.com and if you see him in the streets of Columbus, Ohio or in your city, I'm sure he'll give you the $5 holla! 

Here on BeShayBE.com we will begin posting poetry on a weekly basis. We need YOU in order to make this a success! If you would like for your poetry to be featured on BeShayBE.com send your submissions to SoFloetic@beshaybe.com! Send a picture along with your poetry, and if you like an author analysis of your piece. THANK YOU for your contributions!

These 2 poems are from my HOMIE Quincy aka Q! Q can be found on Facebook: Quincy D. Howard or twitter www.twitter.com/mistah614 CHECK HIM OUT!

Blame
Seems like romance and love were never with me
But things that you see ain't what you expect it to be
You gave me your soul... and I cherished it so
The way you treated me was richer than gold...
It was a struggle... just so hard for us to be
Now all I do is think about you and me.
When our bodies touched, and our minds met... breath left my chest
It's the best thing I've ever felt just yet
But something was amiss... and I felt it for the longest
Maybe because sometimes when we spoke, you weren't honest...
Not telling me lies, yet telling me half-truths
And I try to find those truths.... dig for the roots.
Say that you love me, miss me.... don't want to leave
But when you talk, it's hard to believe...
Why can't things just be easy?
Why can't you wait?
For me to give my mind and escape...
I can't be your man, cuz I won't be the best
I'll milk you so dry... till there's nothing left
But maybe that's my problem... I can't be fair.
I don't want to be with you, but want you to stay there.
I want you to be my peg... as I claw to the top.
I just don't want this perfect feeling to stop...
But the fighting is rotting away to my soul...
And I know I'm losing you... we cannot grow
Cuz I don't trust you, and you can't love me.... we're stuck at a cross
And the only thing left is for something to be lost...
I care about you so much, yet I just don't know
If I can care about you, cuz the pain will show...
And the BLAME is put on the ones that's not true.......
but I can't tell if it's me or you....

Price of Life

Even with my middle finger to the sky, and my eyes//focused on the prize... I feel like my slow demise//My mind rots of death... my brain is a coffin//The smoke slowly starts to clear, but I find myself coughing...//These niggaz keep talking... focused on me//And it's hard to be a father to D...//When I'm ready to give up... or ready to swell a niggas lips up//My life is in shambles... pieces I gotta pick up//I'm dealing with the problems of being single parent//and being infamous... look at my face, and it's apparent/I promise that my soul is so tired... but heart stays wired//You say that I'm weak but you're a muthafuckin' liar//Until you understand what's like to be here//Dealing with my issues with my life... my fears//You can't formulate an opinion that could matter at all//'Cuz I believe you wanna see me fall//I'm a man... I ain't perfect, I'm no angel whatsoever//It's just breathing since 5 has made me tough leather//It's made me smarter than a button... and a little bit stronger//But I don't think I can do this much longer//I got morals and stead-strong mission//To raise my son in the flesh, and not in prison...//But I keep getting pushed. Just give me some kush or a strap//And I'll pay for the support when I come back...//This pen ain't paying me enough... I'm in a fuckin' rush//And I feel that they trying to throw me under the bus....//In the wild, survival is the only rule you must go by//Fuck the life of rich, famous and the doe-eyed...//I'm a beast... I was raised as a cub of a nomad//Maybe that's why see everything else as so bad...//I can't afford the price of life.... that shit cost too much//But I'ma work for the prosperity... I lost too much//I have a legacy to teach... no roadblocks I can't breach//Don't think about standing in my way, you'll be missing some teeth//Witness the focus of a father with a lot to lose//With skin tough as concrete... it's hard to bruise//You can't hurt me, homie... this pain is my muse//And your scornful words will life the end of my fuse.....//

I haven't posted a poem on here in a looonnnggg time but here we go!

I just started this 2day, but I did'nt feel like finishing it (lazy) I was thinking maybe I can find someone to finish it for me...*thought bubble*


Hypothetically speaking If YOU and I were to meet
I would know YOU from jump, you'd sweep me off my feet
Just one look into the windows to your soul
Immediately I'll have the feeling I'll already know
I have what YOU need the piece that God left out
Your rib the missing piece to puzzle It's me no doubt
Our love would eclipse the sun because it's too damn bright
Not to mention the fact that together we out of sight
My love deep enough for a whale to swim in
Forever and ever our story never ends
Cause me to smile when the world is on my shoulders
Our souls joined 2gether a bond to never be broken...

If not for YOU I would'nt be able to live to thrive
If I did'nt know YOU how would I be able to survive
If YOU ever left me I would be a lost cause
If I ever left YOU life would stop no pause
If my mother and father forsake me YOU would still by my side
If I accept your love for me we'll be 2gether in this next life
If my best friend hates me and nobody gives a care
If I alone feel alone and want to die YOU are always there

YOU infiltrate MY thougthts everyday
YOU show your love to ME in infinite ways
YOU seep into MY soul so heavenly and sweet
YOU love MY idiosicrasies and add to me
YOU don't answer MY every call but come right on time
YOU always in MY heart you'll never leave MY mind

I don't understand why YOU do what YOU do
I may not look like it but I love YOU too
I feel YOU in my spirit my soul so corrupt
I am so imperfect I wonder why YOU don't give up
I constantly call on YOU in time of need
I know YOU are my rock the only for me

Head To Toe - Eric Roberson

Invigorating my soul to the core

Always leaves me wanting, needing, craving for more

Inspire me, lift me off my feet

High into another stratosphere

Catapaulting me into ecstascy

On top of the world in your arms

In my night sky the only star

The only man that I adore

Like waves washing the shore

Cleanse my spirit from loves before

My heart flying freely

Floating on through the heavens

Most precious creation of GOD you are

I loved you from the very start

Please don't ever walk away

Because I for sure am here to stay

Life for me took a drastic turn

No longer a woman spurned

Now one with hope for better tommorrows

Threw away my pain my sorrows

In exchange for YOU my beautiful diamond

NO thing could ever change my mind

So my question to YOU simple and plain

Will you be here for the rest of my life to STAY??

~~Loving ALL

that YOU are and what you will BE

BeShayBE~~

I'm tip-toeing on a dangerous line
Thinking we could do this one more time
Our history marred by infidelity, tainted, rotten the core
Yet and still I keep going back for more more more
Adapting a dangerous mindset
That sex is just sex
When in reality its much more complex
I'm sharing my body with you
Mind and soul too
Our energy coming together full force
Reasons why sexing should mean much more
Our souls interwined, tangled up to say the least
Why windows get busted out, gotta call the police
When things go south because my pride is involved
Why u should twice before tryna get in my draws
An emotional wreck, I let you have a piece of me
Pretending I could push feelings aside, how foolish of me
In turn u use them creating an unfair advantage
Cuz u don't give a damn, ur attitude raw and savage
Lemme keep a cool head though it aint all on you
Because provebial wisdom shows that in the pudding is the proof
I wasn't too blind not to know the truth
Hindsight 20/20 I already KNOW you
I aint warming no jail bench on some b.s.
I don't need none of the drama, NONE of the stress
Smartened up I'm using the past as my guide
That's why last time REALLY was the last time

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So yea on twitter every day I try to say hi to people that I talked to within the last 24 hrs lol. I've recently picked up a new friend, which if you're on twitter follow @tracytruesdale and look at her website: http://mebeinganonymous.blogspot.com/ ! She's pretty cool!! We had a semi-poet war this morning which was uber fun look below and see if you can keep up!

(I said good morning *lol I couldn't find the tweet*, how are you?)

tracytruesdale @BeShayBe I am splendid! y tu? Famously flattered by fabulous faces, feisty fables and frank fuckery. Feeling fiery fashionable and fresh about 4 hours ago

@tracytruesdale i am fantastic, fabulously fair, Feeling full of fire, fanning the flames, for fear of frightening fawkin lames...
4 hours

@tracytruesdale took me a min to remember I was suposed to reply
4 hours ago

tracytruesdale @BeShayBe Oh! I am pleasantly pleased at your purring and posturing. Propose primping prancing & proudly parading!
about 4 hours ago

@tracytruesdale Yes yes see I'm peering peeking into present and past, presently preparing for prompt promtion, Pimpin da public cuz i know
4 hours ago

@tracytruesdale my prowess is dope.
4 hours ago

tracytruesdale @BeShayBe I can't take it. I forgot you gets busy and then ur throwing tonguetwisters at me.
4 hours ago

tracytruesdale @BeShayBe meager meandering moves motion and myriads of magical mews. My mishap means much to measly morbid moguls amid mobility. about 3 hours ago

@tracytruesdale There u go!!! Damn I can't even reply for a min becuz I'm driving!
3 hours ago

tracytruesdale @BeShayBe hahaha. I am here. I am here. Reply when u get time. Twitter is foreva (I hope). about 3 hours ago

@tracytruesdale mumbling melodies meaningful melodic measures as the maestro meets me midway me moan moving me to marvelous peaks
3 hours ago

@tracytruesdale forgot making b4 me moan lol
3 hours ago

Please don't take this the wrong way because ultimately God is the one to me, but as far as what I am presently experiencing, I'm learning that dependence, or relying on others to be there for you or to fulfill/complete you is a big mistake in certain situations and circumstances. Not that all people are a let down, but people can really hurt you if you allow them to do so...In a nutshell this is a cathartic means of me getting my thoughts together, to sort of make sense. Just in a deep over the head type of way...lol

I'm the ONE

I've searched high and low.
Near and far far away.
Deep in the pit of my soul.
Every direction every way.

I've looked in other ppl to find the source.
I let others use me up, up, up.
Until what I have left is no more.
Bone dry, no more virtue in my cup.

Until the day I finally reallized,
And took a deep look way down inside.
I found inside purpose set before me,
The real me, my soul, the essence, the BEAUTY.

I was so afraid that I wasn't enough, I can't make it.
I don't have what it takes, so I'll just fake it.
Ignoring what I already had for what I said "I need"
Neglecting the fact that what I need, want, desire is already planted within me

The one piece that was missing, hidden amongst the strife,
That I'm the one I've been lookin for my entire life...

YEA I'M GETTIN' TIRED OF THE BITCH NIGGA'S LIES/ EXCUSES USED TO SOFTEN THE BLOWS AND BLIND MY EYES/ OK HE MAY NOT BE A BITCH, BUT HE PLAYS ONE WELL/ I'M GOING BY HIS ACTIONS AND THAT'S THE STORY THEY TELL/ I'M GETTIN TIRED OF BITCH NIGGAS AS KATT WILLIAMS SAY/ CUZ THEY GETTIN' STRONGER AND STRONGER EVERYDAY/ OFFA DA POWER GIVEN TO THEM BY THE STRONG/ FEEDIN' OFFA PEOPLE LIKE ME AND THAT SHIT IS WRONG/ WHAT'S EVEN WORSE IS THAT ALL THE WHILE I SIT BACK AND KNOW/ THAT THE STRENGTH I POSESS IS SLOWLY GOING/ BECAUSE I GIVE AND GIVE THINGS THAT HE DON'T DESERVE/ OVER AND OVER GIVING SHIT THAT HIS ASS AIN'T EARNED/ SO THIS IS THE PLACE @ WHICH I'VE ARRIVED/ IN A PLACE OF RESENTMENT FILLED W/ TEARS, BUT I'M DRYIN' MY EYES/ BECAUSE OUT OF THE MANY THINGS U AIN'T WORTH/ IS MY PRECIOUS TEARS FALLING DOWN TO THE EARTH/ SO IMMA HOLD MY HEAD HIGH/ ASK GOD TO CLEAR MY HEART AND CLEAR MY MIND/
OTHERWISE INSANITY MIGHT ENSUE CAUSING ME TO CLOCK OUT/ I THOUGHT WE HAD POTENTIAL, BUT NOW I HAVE MY DOUBTS/THE ULTIMATE STRUGGLE IN IT ALL IS LETTING GO/ LOOKING PAST THE HURT AND PAIN AND LETTING MATURITY SHOW/ SEE THERES ONE THING THAT THIS WOMAN KNOWS FA SHO/ THAT THE BEST THING THAT HAPPENED TO YOU JUST WALKED OUT THE DOOR/ AND UNLESS THERE IS A CHANGE IN YOUR WAYS/ YOU WILL CONTINUE TO BE LONELY UNTIL YOUR LAST BREATH, ON YOUR LAST DAY/ AND AS FOR MYSELF AND THE COMMITMENT TO YOU I EXPRESSED/ THINKIN' ABOUT THE TIME AND LOVE WASTED CAUSES ME TO REGRET/ THE MOMENT I LET YOU BEGIN TO USE ME UP/ STUPIDLY SUBSTITUTING LUST IN PLACE OF LOVE/ BUT LETS LOOK AHEAD AND NOT LOOK BACK/ I PROMISE TO MYSELF AND MAKE THIS PACT/ I VOW TODAY THAT ON LIFE'S PATH I WILL RECONSIDER/ WHAT ACTIONS TO TAKE WHEN CROSSING PATHS W/ A BITCH NIGGA....

This is some more stuff that is old that I decided to share with you guys....

So Where do we start? Lots of complicated matters, let's get to the heart...

I've become exactly what I've despised/ So take a listen and see the world thru my eyes/ The girl that your man has on the side/ Yes the other woman is the car I chose to drive/ I know you may say why would you play yourself like that?/ The answer I can give you is what I know to be facts/ He never said he loved me or anything like that/ But, when I'm with him he loves the way I do that../ Thing that I do/ We have our fun together, but I'm jealous of you/ Because you have his heart in your hands/ Knowing this is true is what I can't stand/ I feel like eventually it will be mine/ All it's gonna take is time, and it WILL be mine/ Although I know in the back of my mind/ That in his sky you're a star that shines bright/ The question is then why am I still here?/ The reason why is because in my heart I fear/ That in the end 'll be alone @ the end of the song/ That's why moving on is taking
so long/ I don't wanna be in this situtation/ Sitting up here having illict relations/ Sleeping with a man who is already taken/ Caught up in this fantasy sadly mistaken/ In retrospect doing things that I know I should not/ But what is it going to take for me to stop?

Man I ain't did this in soooo long I wrote this on 10/10/07 read and gimme ur thoughts!

Thank God for grantin me this moment of clarity...My mind hurts sooo badly right now,I am in love with him and my heart is breaking. Eyes watering uncontrolably, blinding me I cannot see. Emotions haywire because he's all I want to need...Drinking myself into a prison trying to be free.. I want to be free...To live without you in my thoughts my thoughts constantly. Thoughts of you overtaking me and consuming my day. Wishing you would love me and only me. Knowing this will never be a reality. Sticking around waiting for this to materialize, For feelings to be conjured up but realizing it'd all be a lie....

Loving hard is such a crazy thing
Especially when the one you love is oblivious
Knowing by face but not by name
Not familiar with my love, driving me insane
He knows but he don't really know how deep and far my love will go.
I want for there to be more, for intimacy to take place
To be the one you know can never be replaced
I know you're that one for me truly sent from above
To rescue me from my past forays in love
He knows but he don't really know how deep and far my love will go.
What I mean when I say this is you know that love for you is there
But this kinda love is so precious and rare
The kind that never fails and hopes for the best
Goes to lengths to never be attained by the rest
He knows but he don't even know how deep and far my love will go.
You may think you know but you have no idea....

Worth every minute, every second
Each frame of time with u is a blessing
I want to take things slow, is that cool?
You got me thinkin I can change 4 u

Predestined our paths crossing in life
Like no person I've ever encountered b4
A privilege to recieve the things you do
You got me thinkin I can change 4 u

I just wanna focus on the beauty that is u
Your spirit, ur aura. I'm enjoying the view
My life force, my king, more than just my boo
Not thinkin but knowing that I can change 4 u

This post is about moving onto bigger better things which I am in the process of doing! Enjoy ;>)

Can't let my feet stop too long and make their home right here
Gotta keep on pressin onwards thru the pain and thru the tears
If I don't make it happen nobody else will
Be lookin back filled w/ regrets, wasted years

Gotta forgive and forget, the 1 w/o sin cast the 1st stone
I'm gonna keep pushin I won't stay here got be movin on
Aint no stoppin me now I'm wiser, stronger, better
I've been held back long enough, I've learned my lesson

So farewell to inhibition and fear; setbacks along the way
Looking forward to 2mrw because it's a brand new day
Walking with new feet, the soundtrack of my life upbeat
Seeing life with new eyes, I can now see the sunshine